I made an error in judgement.
I went with my roommate to be a spectator to her play session. I was asked to play too, and I did not say no. I also did not contact my protector/mentor to ask permission. I felt guilty the whole way home, and contacted her immediately when I got home.
Now I am being punished and rightfully so.
I feel incredibly sorrowful that I have disappointed Mistress. I am completely remorseful , but can not contact her for a week to even express how terrible I feel. I have a week to think about my actions. But guaranteed the way I feel today will be compounded by the end of the week.
She is incredibly generous to not cut me loose for being so disobedient. Especially when she is nothing but good to me. I will not make this mistake again.. that is for sure.
I am still working on my homework for the sub-mentoring program .
I truly am trying to become a better person- better submissive.
Right now I just feel like I let everyone down.
I need to be better at setting harder limits.. of saying NO and meaning NO.
But for now .. this is how things are .
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