I have found that night time is a difficult time with my foot, it hurts alot... it takes awhile to find a comfortable position in which to sleep.
I find my thoughts traveling to a time when I am with my future Dom.
When I am cherished.
That is the moment I wait for.
to feel His breath in my ear...
to feel His words on my skin.
to feel the power of His hand.
the seduction of Him.
yes that is what i am longing for.
will You find me?
my thoughts are racing... and perhaps... one day You will.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Waking Up.
I am just waking up this morning, or is it that I am really just waking up in life? I am not certain.
A few constant reminders that I am indeed still alive - the chronic pain in my foot until I have surgery. I am feeling the weight of not being able to be around people, I feel like such a hermit, and I truly miss interactions.. laughing, or just talking with someone.
I have been saving up all of my energy to go to the halloween party that Mistress Karen invited me to. Was actually pretty stubborn in wanting to go, but I have missed out on so much in three weeks and being around my mom for the last three weeks is about to send me in to the crazy farm.
So I dressed up as a vampire, I bought a dress specifically for the party and it arrived two days ago. I purchased some fangs and I had this super cool wig that I bought awhile back.
With my foot it takes me forEVER to do anything so I had to start with preparing the theatrical fangs early in the morning. Then prepared to get ready for the party starting at 4pm. I showered , then put on make up , had to have help with my tights. Then I went to put my shoe on my right foot and ... all of my shoes were gone.
Apparently my ex in a maneuver to have that last little bit of control took all my shoes. He left me with two pairs of flip flops and tennis shoes. thoughtful.
Apparently - he felt that I would have to call him to get my shoes. I did not.
He does not want me but wants to still exact this control over me ... I do not understand.
I was upset but decided that I would still go to the party... and I am glad I did.
One of my friends picked me up, which I was grateful for.
Until I got us lost... I had NO idea there were three exits for Rainbow off of the 95 ... do I ever go to Vegas? NO.
When W/we finally arrived at the party, I was so excited to see Mistress Karen, and meet a lot of people that I really haven't met before. I sat in a chair - due to the whole foot thing, and got to people watch - one of my favorite things. I was introduced to a Sir who had all of these cool knife finger things on his costume (think freddy kruegeer) which Mistress Karen ran over my arm with. She also had him run down my arm with all of them.
::shivers::
Then my friend was able to move me to an outside couch where I was able to talk to alot of new people.
and that is where my evening took an exciting new turn... and opened my eyes to new awakenings..
VegasWillow was kind enough to break my rope cherry, She tied me up to the lovely Ana, it was amazing and beautiful, and i doooo soooo love rope. It was interesting to try and drink my cocktail tied the way I was, but it was fun too. Then I was able to experience edge play thanks to the beautiful VegasWillow. It is something that i feared but wanted to try.
I loved it. (feeling a little breathless just writing about it)
Then Mistress Karen took me to the cross and flogged me and paddled me.
I love the way the flogger feels heavy and thuddy on my back, butt and thighs. It is a delicious feeling really. She also used a wooden paddle, which (ouch) provided a good thwack against my ass. I was not sure about this at first and tears stung my eyes, but I was able to breathe through it. I have always been really scared of wimping out, of not being able to "take it" I guess. But it actually just reinforced who I am . Woke me up to a whole new pleasure in pain ... Afterwards I felt... so sleepy- I wanted to go to sleep right then , it was like every pressure- every thing that has been weighing on me , all of everything was gone.. and the world was right and I could finally sleep.
Yet when I got home all I could do is lie awake and reprocess it in my head until finally sleep found me.
and here I have awoken to ... this whole new ... feeling of everything being right in the world.. well my world anyhow.
A few constant reminders that I am indeed still alive - the chronic pain in my foot until I have surgery. I am feeling the weight of not being able to be around people, I feel like such a hermit, and I truly miss interactions.. laughing, or just talking with someone.
I have been saving up all of my energy to go to the halloween party that Mistress Karen invited me to. Was actually pretty stubborn in wanting to go, but I have missed out on so much in three weeks and being around my mom for the last three weeks is about to send me in to the crazy farm.
So I dressed up as a vampire, I bought a dress specifically for the party and it arrived two days ago. I purchased some fangs and I had this super cool wig that I bought awhile back.
With my foot it takes me forEVER to do anything so I had to start with preparing the theatrical fangs early in the morning. Then prepared to get ready for the party starting at 4pm. I showered , then put on make up , had to have help with my tights. Then I went to put my shoe on my right foot and ... all of my shoes were gone.
Apparently my ex in a maneuver to have that last little bit of control took all my shoes. He left me with two pairs of flip flops and tennis shoes. thoughtful.
Apparently - he felt that I would have to call him to get my shoes. I did not.
He does not want me but wants to still exact this control over me ... I do not understand.
I was upset but decided that I would still go to the party... and I am glad I did.
One of my friends picked me up, which I was grateful for.
Until I got us lost... I had NO idea there were three exits for Rainbow off of the 95 ... do I ever go to Vegas? NO.
When W/we finally arrived at the party, I was so excited to see Mistress Karen, and meet a lot of people that I really haven't met before. I sat in a chair - due to the whole foot thing, and got to people watch - one of my favorite things. I was introduced to a Sir who had all of these cool knife finger things on his costume (think freddy kruegeer) which Mistress Karen ran over my arm with. She also had him run down my arm with all of them.
::shivers::
Then my friend was able to move me to an outside couch where I was able to talk to alot of new people.
and that is where my evening took an exciting new turn... and opened my eyes to new awakenings..
VegasWillow was kind enough to break my rope cherry, She tied me up to the lovely Ana, it was amazing and beautiful, and i doooo soooo love rope. It was interesting to try and drink my cocktail tied the way I was, but it was fun too. Then I was able to experience edge play thanks to the beautiful VegasWillow. It is something that i feared but wanted to try.
I loved it. (feeling a little breathless just writing about it)
Then Mistress Karen took me to the cross and flogged me and paddled me.
I love the way the flogger feels heavy and thuddy on my back, butt and thighs. It is a delicious feeling really. She also used a wooden paddle, which (ouch) provided a good thwack against my ass. I was not sure about this at first and tears stung my eyes, but I was able to breathe through it. I have always been really scared of wimping out, of not being able to "take it" I guess. But it actually just reinforced who I am . Woke me up to a whole new pleasure in pain ... Afterwards I felt... so sleepy- I wanted to go to sleep right then , it was like every pressure- every thing that has been weighing on me , all of everything was gone.. and the world was right and I could finally sleep.
Yet when I got home all I could do is lie awake and reprocess it in my head until finally sleep found me.
and here I have awoken to ... this whole new ... feeling of everything being right in the world.. well my world anyhow.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
learning to submit in a whole new way
Well, I am finding that this journey sometimes has some forks in the road...
I have been excited to go to the munches ... and to power exchange. Meeting people who share common interests that don't look at you with one eyebrow up, when you share certain naughty things that have crossed your mind. I think I have had more than a couple friends look at me with "the look" the one that says "Have you lost your damn mind?" or "I thought you were a whole other kind of girl".
I have been thinking alot lately about how I am the way I am .. when did it all start... when did I first notice there was something just a little bit different about me.
Well... the earliest I can remember is watching Dudley DoRight ... and when Snidley Whiplash would tie Nell to the train track ... I always wanted to be Nell.
Dastardly right?
I remember it like it was yesterday...
Right now I have nothing BUT time on my hands. I will explain... and then explain some more...
On Saturday, I noticed a little ache in my foot. Nothing major - just an ache. When I walked it was a little sore. I didn't think much about it, went to bed, and figured that I would wake up and it would be better.
Wrong!
It was worse. Here we are trying to move furniture in and out of my house and I am now unable to even assist. Other than to oil the furniture that is moving in . By Monday , I fully can not walk or stand, that is how painful it has become. I drive myself to the Emergency Room where they take X-rays and tell me .. not broken ... here is some percocet ... rest your foot.
Can I say that percocet ... just makes you sleep... and then when you have pain .. you wake up for a brief moment to enjoy the pain ... and then fall back asleep.
I woke up this morning and I have had it. I have cussed my foot out several times - advising it to get with the program and stop hurting so I can get on with life... there is stuffto do and work to be done. However my left foot apparently has a mind of it's own and chooses to not submit to my attempt at Domming some respect out of it. I called my chiropractor's office and asked if they knew a specialist .
My friend Tracie said no , but she would look through the list on my insurance website and she would try to get me an appointment.
She called me back and had an appointment for me at 230 *thank God* .
My dad drove me to the appointment and helped me get into the office - i am not so good on crutches... Where I met with the nicest Doctor. He seemed a little puzzled by my symptoms and thought at first I had gout. To be honest , I thought he was just going to give me a shot in my foot and be done with me ...
But he marked my foot where it hurts, then sent me to the torture chamber... I mean xray.
I sobbed through the whole thing ... so painful.
I was sat in another room and waited- where the doctor said these things while looking at my xray...
"Well ... that's not good"
"hey look at that she has an extra bone in her foot"
(yay me?)
and "ohhhhh BUMMER no wonder she is in so much pain"
ok two out of the three freaked me out and not the one you would think about me having an extra bone... I am totally cool with being a freak of nature... just sayin...
So doctor comes in sits down and has "the look" the one that says your foot is fucked up.
But he is more eloquent than that and says...
"look ... you have every right to be in pain right now... don't let anyone tell you that you are being a baby... you have a bone spur on the top of your foot that is rubbing against your tendon and fraying it. Basically it is threatening to sever your tendon . which is why you are having SO much pain."
I just sat there with my jaw agape.
He continued with " we are going to try to get the swelling and the pain down to a minimum. Your life for the next two weeks consists of ... ice on 30 minutes ... ice off 30 minutes, you need to buy some books, rent some movies and plan to fall asleep from boredome.... alot. You are on complete bed rest... Keep the foot up immobilized and that is your life - I will decide in two weeks if you are able to have surgery. Which is the only thing that is going to help you"
I tried to comprehend all that he was saying but honestly i just heard :blah blah blah... bedrest.... blah blah blah surgery:
Granted I have done more crying in three days than i have ever done in my life. These pains will come out of nowhere and just control my whole world. I can't think ... eat ... sleep.. think... anything when they happen. It is almost like having hard labor in my foot.
I have been trying to do some exercizes (mental ones) ...imagining my future Sir.
But I am a slave to this pain right now ... and it is hard to get into a different headspace.
Any suggestions on how to change this?
I feel completely cut off from the world. I am used to being pretty free and just going when i want.
It sucks to be submissive to my foot... of all things.
Yet submit I will have to ... I have no other options... I am fighting to keep my sanity in all this... perhaps somebody out there has some mental distractions for me?
I have been excited to go to the munches ... and to power exchange. Meeting people who share common interests that don't look at you with one eyebrow up, when you share certain naughty things that have crossed your mind. I think I have had more than a couple friends look at me with "the look" the one that says "Have you lost your damn mind?" or "I thought you were a whole other kind of girl".
I have been thinking alot lately about how I am the way I am .. when did it all start... when did I first notice there was something just a little bit different about me.
Well... the earliest I can remember is watching Dudley DoRight ... and when Snidley Whiplash would tie Nell to the train track ... I always wanted to be Nell.
Dastardly right?
I remember it like it was yesterday...
Right now I have nothing BUT time on my hands. I will explain... and then explain some more...
On Saturday, I noticed a little ache in my foot. Nothing major - just an ache. When I walked it was a little sore. I didn't think much about it, went to bed, and figured that I would wake up and it would be better.
Wrong!
It was worse. Here we are trying to move furniture in and out of my house and I am now unable to even assist. Other than to oil the furniture that is moving in . By Monday , I fully can not walk or stand, that is how painful it has become. I drive myself to the Emergency Room where they take X-rays and tell me .. not broken ... here is some percocet ... rest your foot.
Can I say that percocet ... just makes you sleep... and then when you have pain .. you wake up for a brief moment to enjoy the pain ... and then fall back asleep.
I woke up this morning and I have had it. I have cussed my foot out several times - advising it to get with the program and stop hurting so I can get on with life... there is stuffto do and work to be done. However my left foot apparently has a mind of it's own and chooses to not submit to my attempt at Domming some respect out of it. I called my chiropractor's office and asked if they knew a specialist .
My friend Tracie said no , but she would look through the list on my insurance website and she would try to get me an appointment.
She called me back and had an appointment for me at 230 *thank God* .
My dad drove me to the appointment and helped me get into the office - i am not so good on crutches... Where I met with the nicest Doctor. He seemed a little puzzled by my symptoms and thought at first I had gout. To be honest , I thought he was just going to give me a shot in my foot and be done with me ...
But he marked my foot where it hurts, then sent me to the torture chamber... I mean xray.
I sobbed through the whole thing ... so painful.
I was sat in another room and waited- where the doctor said these things while looking at my xray...
"Well ... that's not good"
"hey look at that she has an extra bone in her foot"
(yay me?)
and "ohhhhh BUMMER no wonder she is in so much pain"
ok two out of the three freaked me out and not the one you would think about me having an extra bone... I am totally cool with being a freak of nature... just sayin...
So doctor comes in sits down and has "the look" the one that says your foot is fucked up.
But he is more eloquent than that and says...
"look ... you have every right to be in pain right now... don't let anyone tell you that you are being a baby... you have a bone spur on the top of your foot that is rubbing against your tendon and fraying it. Basically it is threatening to sever your tendon . which is why you are having SO much pain."
I just sat there with my jaw agape.
He continued with " we are going to try to get the swelling and the pain down to a minimum. Your life for the next two weeks consists of ... ice on 30 minutes ... ice off 30 minutes, you need to buy some books, rent some movies and plan to fall asleep from boredome.... alot. You are on complete bed rest... Keep the foot up immobilized and that is your life - I will decide in two weeks if you are able to have surgery. Which is the only thing that is going to help you"
I tried to comprehend all that he was saying but honestly i just heard :blah blah blah... bedrest.... blah blah blah surgery:
Granted I have done more crying in three days than i have ever done in my life. These pains will come out of nowhere and just control my whole world. I can't think ... eat ... sleep.. think... anything when they happen. It is almost like having hard labor in my foot.
I have been trying to do some exercizes (mental ones) ...imagining my future Sir.
But I am a slave to this pain right now ... and it is hard to get into a different headspace.
Any suggestions on how to change this?
I feel completely cut off from the world. I am used to being pretty free and just going when i want.
It sucks to be submissive to my foot... of all things.
Yet submit I will have to ... I have no other options... I am fighting to keep my sanity in all this... perhaps somebody out there has some mental distractions for me?
Sunday, September 26, 2010
The Trouble with Trust ....
The trouble with trust... is that it can be broken. Within the blink of an eye-word or actions can destroy a friendship, a relationship... or more.
This lifestyle ... demands that secrecy and privacy and TRUST are mandatory.
Which is why when someone you trust in the lifestyle - betrays you ... talks about you behind your back - or shares priveledged information -it is devastating.
I have been through a lot in the last few years. Hell, I have been through alot in the last few weeks. My privacy is very important to me. Trust is HUGE to me. If someone betrays that trust, it is damaging to me. Especially someone that I consider a close friend.
Or when they out private information about you to a group of people ... It is freaking devastating.
I contacted Mistress Karen to share my feelings on this , especially since the person is in the scene.
Basically this is how I am feeling...
Betrayed... hurt...
::sighs::
I am certain that... I will eventually heal over this ... but it doesn't make it any less painful today.
This lifestyle ... demands that secrecy and privacy and TRUST are mandatory.
Which is why when someone you trust in the lifestyle - betrays you ... talks about you behind your back - or shares priveledged information -it is devastating.
I have been through a lot in the last few years. Hell, I have been through alot in the last few weeks. My privacy is very important to me. Trust is HUGE to me. If someone betrays that trust, it is damaging to me. Especially someone that I consider a close friend.
Or when they out private information about you to a group of people ... It is freaking devastating.
I contacted Mistress Karen to share my feelings on this , especially since the person is in the scene.
Basically this is how I am feeling...
Betrayed... hurt...
::sighs::
I am certain that... I will eventually heal over this ... but it doesn't make it any less painful today.
Friday, September 17, 2010
Activity 1
Activity 1.
Get yourself a loose-leaf notebook in which to keep a journal and workbook. Allow space between entries to make notes later. Use the journal to write about your first contact with the idea of domination.
Was it in a book? A movie? From a friend?
I have always ... ALWAYS ... been submissive. I think that I was taught at an early age to be submissive. There are alot of Dominate people in my family. Then when I was married I married an abusive man thinking he would be in charge and dominate but he was really just abusive. When we divorced I have a friend who was a Dom and he really introduced me to a D/s relationship. Provoking feelings from me I could not understand. I began to unfold like a flower. The more we explored the more I opened up to the idea of domination and NOT abuse.
How did you feel about it then?
At the time I felt dirty. Like there was something wrong with me. My friends were very strong independant women and I actually liked a strong male figure that I could ultimately serve and be on my best behavior for.
How do you feel about it now?
Now it seems clear to me that there was nothing wrong with me at all- that this is how I am made. And although I have not had any training or play time . It is evident to me that this is what life I am supposed to have.
Why do you find it attractive?
It awakens something in me. Makes me feel complete. I have never felt so ...sexy or wanted.
Why do you want to be dominated?
I don't know if this is a want... more like a deep need or ... desire ... When I am not I feel scattered, and incomplete.
What is your goal at the end of this learning process?
I do not know if I have a goal... I mostly interested in learning more about myself and the way that I tick. Hopefully this will help me to find a Dom that fits me and I fit him perfectly. I want to learn more about serving.
What type of submissive do you think describes you right now?
I am still dicscovering this one about myself.
- These questions can lead to greater understanding of yourself and give you some answers for those master applicants wise enough to ask them of you in the future -
What myths and assumptions about domination do you think you have that might not be based on reality?
One of the biggest myths that I believed has been completely de-mystified. I found that abuse and Domination are NOT the same thing. This was a huge burden lifted from me. I had chosen partners I beleived were Dominate .. but in actuality were not.
Can you describe your greatest obstacle to finding a dominant partner?
wow great question. Right now it is me... but for reasons that are more of the heart than anything else. I just went through a break up and I am not sure how ready I am . Silly right? I am trying to figure out exactly how to cut him out of my heart and move on.
What assets do you think you bring to such a relationship?
this is an answer I am still working on.
If you meet regularly with like-minded friends, you might want to bring this task to a meeting and ask how others react to the questions above. The best mentoring will come from like minded people who have been in the lifestyle for a while and have experienced the difference between fantasy and reality.
Take the time between now and when we meet to answer the questions. Look your answers over every couple of days and see if you are being honest with yourself with the answer as it is. Do not over think it though, if it rings true then it is good! We can then discuss it at the munch. You are answering these questions for yourself, not me, so only you will know if the answer is right or wrong. If you have a question about what something means then shoot me an email.
Get yourself a loose-leaf notebook in which to keep a journal and workbook. Allow space between entries to make notes later. Use the journal to write about your first contact with the idea of domination.
Was it in a book? A movie? From a friend?
I have always ... ALWAYS ... been submissive. I think that I was taught at an early age to be submissive. There are alot of Dominate people in my family. Then when I was married I married an abusive man thinking he would be in charge and dominate but he was really just abusive. When we divorced I have a friend who was a Dom and he really introduced me to a D/s relationship. Provoking feelings from me I could not understand. I began to unfold like a flower. The more we explored the more I opened up to the idea of domination and NOT abuse.
How did you feel about it then?
At the time I felt dirty. Like there was something wrong with me. My friends were very strong independant women and I actually liked a strong male figure that I could ultimately serve and be on my best behavior for.
How do you feel about it now?
Now it seems clear to me that there was nothing wrong with me at all- that this is how I am made. And although I have not had any training or play time . It is evident to me that this is what life I am supposed to have.
Why do you find it attractive?
It awakens something in me. Makes me feel complete. I have never felt so ...sexy or wanted.
Why do you want to be dominated?
I don't know if this is a want... more like a deep need or ... desire ... When I am not I feel scattered, and incomplete.
What is your goal at the end of this learning process?
I do not know if I have a goal... I mostly interested in learning more about myself and the way that I tick. Hopefully this will help me to find a Dom that fits me and I fit him perfectly. I want to learn more about serving.
What type of submissive do you think describes you right now?
I am still dicscovering this one about myself.
- These questions can lead to greater understanding of yourself and give you some answers for those master applicants wise enough to ask them of you in the future -
What myths and assumptions about domination do you think you have that might not be based on reality?
One of the biggest myths that I believed has been completely de-mystified. I found that abuse and Domination are NOT the same thing. This was a huge burden lifted from me. I had chosen partners I beleived were Dominate .. but in actuality were not.
Can you describe your greatest obstacle to finding a dominant partner?
wow great question. Right now it is me... but for reasons that are more of the heart than anything else. I just went through a break up and I am not sure how ready I am . Silly right? I am trying to figure out exactly how to cut him out of my heart and move on.
What assets do you think you bring to such a relationship?
this is an answer I am still working on.
If you meet regularly with like-minded friends, you might want to bring this task to a meeting and ask how others react to the questions above. The best mentoring will come from like minded people who have been in the lifestyle for a while and have experienced the difference between fantasy and reality.
Take the time between now and when we meet to answer the questions. Look your answers over every couple of days and see if you are being honest with yourself with the answer as it is. Do not over think it though, if it rings true then it is good! We can then discuss it at the munch. You are answering these questions for yourself, not me, so only you will know if the answer is right or wrong. If you have a question about what something means then shoot me an email.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
This says it all..
I was reading something written by someone else today and it spoke VOLUMES to me. I have been kind of weepy as it is, Too much time in my headspace I think... or more actually I know.
Headspace and alone time generally sets off the tickertype list of me thinking of all my failures.
I did not even report to Mistress Karen yesterday (fail) and I feel horrible about it. I will most likely beat myself up about it for the rest of the day.
Anyway I was doing some reading and I found this on BBWcuties wall space and I thought "OMGOSH this is EXACTLY what I feel"
The lifestyle is complicated, sometimes, even more complicated than any of us can ever imagine.....
When a Sub is quiet ...
millions of things are running through her mind.
When a Sub answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ...
she is not at all "fine".
When a Sub lays on your chest .....
she is wishing to be yours forever.
When a Sub says ' I love you ' ......
she means it.
When a Sub says ' I miss you ' ....
no one in this world can miss you more than that.
Life only comes around once make sure you spend it with the right person ....
Find a Dom who.........
calls you "beautiful" instead of "hot".
Find a Dom who will stay awake......
just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the Dom who .....
kisses your forehead.
Cherish the Dom who wants to show you off......
to the world when you are in your sweats with no makeup.
The one Dom who likes to remind you.......
of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Who turns to his friends and says..........
'that's mine!'
I guess to sum it up is I want it "all".....the man, the power exchange, the lover, the protector, the listener, the guider, the laughter, the tears, the grip, the lessening, the control over me, my submission to Him...... he will be my confidant......the one who knows my darkest secrets, my deepest desires, the one that will unlock the door to lead me through it and I will not fear to cross that line because I will be with Him and I will be His.....I guess most of all is that I seek a man who wants to be with me, loves me for who I am and completes me.
::sigh::
oh to lay in want of the things that have not presented themself to you yet. the best thing i gleaned from this
Life only comes around once make sure you spend it with the right person ....
Headspace and alone time generally sets off the tickertype list of me thinking of all my failures.
I did not even report to Mistress Karen yesterday (fail) and I feel horrible about it. I will most likely beat myself up about it for the rest of the day.
Anyway I was doing some reading and I found this on BBWcuties wall space and I thought "OMGOSH this is EXACTLY what I feel"
The lifestyle is complicated, sometimes, even more complicated than any of us can ever imagine.....
When a Sub is quiet ...
millions of things are running through her mind.
When a Sub answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ...
she is not at all "fine".
When a Sub lays on your chest .....
she is wishing to be yours forever.
When a Sub says ' I love you ' ......
she means it.
When a Sub says ' I miss you ' ....
no one in this world can miss you more than that.
Life only comes around once make sure you spend it with the right person ....
Find a Dom who.........
calls you "beautiful" instead of "hot".
Find a Dom who will stay awake......
just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the Dom who .....
kisses your forehead.
Cherish the Dom who wants to show you off......
to the world when you are in your sweats with no makeup.
The one Dom who likes to remind you.......
of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Who turns to his friends and says..........
'that's mine!'
I guess to sum it up is I want it "all".....the man, the power exchange, the lover, the protector, the listener, the guider, the laughter, the tears, the grip, the lessening, the control over me, my submission to Him...... he will be my confidant......the one who knows my darkest secrets, my deepest desires, the one that will unlock the door to lead me through it and I will not fear to cross that line because I will be with Him and I will be His.....I guess most of all is that I seek a man who wants to be with me, loves me for who I am and completes me.
::sigh::
oh to lay in want of the things that have not presented themself to you yet. the best thing i gleaned from this
Life only comes around once make sure you spend it with the right person ....
Thursday, September 9, 2010
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