This says it all..

I was reading something written by someone else today and it spoke VOLUMES to me.  I have been kind of weepy as it is,  Too much time in my headspace I think...  or more actually I know.
Headspace and alone time generally sets off the tickertype list of me thinking of all my failures.
I did not even report to Mistress Karen yesterday (fail) and I feel horrible about it. I will most likely beat myself up about it for the rest of the day.
Anyway I was doing some reading and I found this on BBWcuties wall space and I thought "OMGOSH this is EXACTLY what I feel"
The lifestyle is complicated, sometimes, even more complicated than any of us can ever imagine.....




When a Sub is quiet ...
millions of things are running through her mind.

When a Sub answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ...
she is not at all "fine".

When a Sub lays on your chest .....
she is wishing to be yours forever.

When a Sub says ' I love you ' ......
she means it.

When a Sub says ' I miss you ' ....
no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure you spend it with the right person ....

Find a Dom who.........
calls you "beautiful" instead of "hot".

Find a Dom who will stay awake......
just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the Dom who .....
kisses your forehead.

Cherish the Dom who wants to show you off......
to the world when you are in your sweats with no makeup.

The one Dom who likes to remind you.......
of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says..........
'that's mine!'

I guess to sum it up is I want it "all".....the man, the power exchange, the lover, the protector, the listener, the guider, the laughter, the tears, the grip, the lessening, the control over me, my submission to Him...... he will be my confidant......the one who knows my darkest secrets, my deepest desires, the one that will unlock the door to lead me through it and I will not fear to cross that line because I will be with Him and I will be His.....I guess most of all is that I seek a man who wants to be with me, loves me for who I am and completes me.



::sigh::
oh to lay in want of the things that have not presented themself to you yet. the best thing i gleaned from this
Life only comes around once make sure you spend it with the right person ....